Love without heartache is insanity

Unbeknown to where the path lead a head,
I walked and walked till' my feet were sore ,
I needed to get away, away from all the pain ,
those painful words that pierced through my soul and plummeted my heart,
we were on the brink of destruction and I was barely holding on,
but finally I conjured up the strength to let go,
I let you go and as I watched you walk away,
the pain welled up inside me but I painted on my strongest facade,
I'd never let you see me cry,
for it may give yourself satisfaction,
it hurts but the thought of letting you win this game ; the pain, would be multiplied by infinity,
I watched you go and I relived the moments where you'd said you'd love me ,
you'd said you'd never leave,
why did you throw your heart in reverse?
it's not me, it was never me, it was always you,
your words were smooth and I was gullible,
easily deceived for I was blinded by my own feelings,
the feelings faded and I realised you were a mistake,
I know longer longed for you but I wanted to make things work between us,
I wanted to relive a happily ever after in a moment in time,
I cursed my own stupidity for now I know that it was almost impossible to change the things way were between us,
my future was set and you weren't in it,
when i signed up for love,
I saw heartache coming my way,
because love without heartache is insanity,
but I didn't expect to crash and burn,
at first glimpse ; you were everything I ever wanted,
and as I watched you leave,
my heart skipped a beat and left my soul behind.